The Near Horizon: July 2018


June was a pretty bad month.

Obviously, there really haven't been many updates beyond just Dead Winter, which was already written, so it's pretty easy to put it up regularly.

I normally try to be transparent, but I'm going to be vague right now, mainly just because I don't have enough information. Basically, I'm having a situation where it could be nothing, or it could be something really bad. It's *probably* nothing, though. Not knowing is *really* fucking stressful, and as a result, I've been dealing with some pretty bad anxiety, depression, and insomnia.

A side effect of this is that I'm having a genuinely hard time being interested in like...anything. And I really want to be interested. I want to want to do things. I'm even having a hard time, for example, finding a video game to play. Which sounds like a really fucking stupid problem to be having, but when you're having difficulty with something so basic, it kind of infects other areas as well. I feel like I need to just turn my brain off and relax for even just a few hours, but I can't even do that.

So basically I'm dealing with some shit and it's going to take some time to sort out and I don't really know how long. Hopefully by the end of July, but I don't know.

On the writing front, progress is being made, it's just very slow and sporadic. Unfortunately, I'm still in early pre-production of both Kane's War and my Halo story. I haven't made much in the way of progress on them. I'm going to try and get back into making regular progress this month, but my current situation is kind of unpredictable.

Basically same for The DOOM Chronicles. For some reason it's been REALLY hard to write for it since coming back and I don't really know why. I think it might be because Episode Two, in some ways, feels like a retread of Episode One, which I already wrote, extensively, so it's hard to press on with it. I'm going to keep going with that, though.

The only real piece of news I have is that I began working on a rewrite of a very, very old fan fiction that I never finished. Here's the cover art.

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It's a Knights of the Old Republic fan fiction. I've already written and posted six chapters over on Here's the link, if you want to get started reading it right away. It takes place alongside the original KOTOR, featuring another survivor from the Endar Spire. It chronicles his time on Taris, spent mostly in the Undercity fighting rakghouls, and then goes on to a KOTOR-like story (though not nearly as epic) spanning several planets, including Dantooine, Hoth, and Dxun. (Technically that's a moon, but whatever.)

It's called an Obsidian Classic because it's a rewrite of an old story. Now, technically, there exists a few of those already. The Thing 2: Infection is a rewrite of an old story, but it is not an Obsidian Classic. I'll try to differentiate between them as best I can. Probably the simplest way I can explain it is non-Classics are intended to be modernized, optimized stories that are written with newer sensibilities in mind. Classics, on the other hand, are written more for fun than anything else.

I don't want to make it sound like I'm being lazy with Obsidian Classics, but basically I try not to sweat the small stuff when I write them. I just...write them. I also am trying to sort of recapture some of the ideas and feelings I was going for back then.

It's hard to explain, even in my own head, but there it is.

If you want, you can ignore all that and just read it without a problem.

I'm going to start posting it over on WattPad very soon, on my Obsidian Productions profile. I hope you enjoy it. I started writing it about a week ago because I wanted to write something...simpler. Something less stressful. Something that wasn't planned to be a gigantic epic spanning hundreds of thousands of words. And There Was Another will probably be pretty long, but it's pretty low-stress writing wise, so that's what I've been doing, and probably what I'll be doing.

Sorry I don't have more good news, but this just hasn't been my year so far, and June was pretty bad. I'm really hoping July is when things start to get better.