I'm in kind of a weird place right now. Kinda good. Kinda bad.
I had kind of a like...I don't know, breakdown sounds way too dramatic. Let's just say that I was in a pretty awful mood earlier this week and began really considering the fact that I might actually be really bad at writing.
My problem is that I'm just...so fucking tired of being ignored by most of the world. People who do read my work tell me how awesome it is, but I'm so unpopular that it's kind of makes me despair. I keep seeing all these stories on WattPad that get a million reads that are poorly written copies of other stories that are about YouTubers or boy bands or whatever and wondering what exactly it is I'm doing wrong.
I guess I kind of figure, if I was good, I'd be popular, right?
Unfortunately, that's an easy conclusion to come to. The reality of the situation is tons of people languish in obscurity. Some their entire life. Regardless of their quality.
I still don't know if I suck or not, but I know I need to stop worrying about it. I'm always trying to improve and I'm open to constructive criticism, but the thing is, I am as good as I am, however good or bad that is. The only real answer is to keep writing as best I can.
So with that in mind, I've decided to refocus my efforts.
It just seems like everything I've been trying to do this year has failed so far. Not necessarily failed to be noticed, but more failed to be a good idea on my part. The conclusion I've drawn is that it's probably time to stop diverting my attention and just get to work on the follow-up to The Shadow Wars.
As such, I've got a few cancellations to announce.
I've taken down Unknown. I've had to admit to myself that it just isn't working. Trying to write it was honestly dragging me down, because I realized that I just didn't know how to write it, and this was a case where persevering wasn't a good idea. So it's gone. I'm sorry if you were reading it.
The other titles that I've announced, IT'S DARK HERE, DAWN'S WAR, DESOLATION DREAMING, THE VOID, & PURGATORY, are not necessarily canceled, but they are at least put back on the shelf. I'm not sure when I'll pull them back down. I'm hoping the fact that I'm going to start working on my next big novel, and the other big piece of news I'm dropping, will make up for this fact.
I also have been alluding to an idea for a few months now about a side-series to The Shadow Wars. I actually went so far as make and release a cover for it on Facebook. I'm canceling this officially. Again, sorry. I shouldn't have bothered with the cover, but it was done in an act of desperation when I was having my difficulties. I have been working on it behind the scenes for a few weeks now, and after having to rework the first story more than once, I finally admitted that it was a bad idea and I was wasting my time. And if I were to write it, I think I'd be wasting your time, too.
Now, the big announcement. Remember that Post-Apocalyptic Survival/Horror novel I kept mentioning over 2017 and earlier this year? Well, it's done, and basically ready to go. The plans I had for it kind of fell through, so I'm sitting here with a complete novel that I think might actually be really good.
I'm releasing it.
It's called DEAD WINTER. It takes place decades after a pair of apocalypse level events ripped the world apart: a virus turned most of humanity and many of the animals into ravenous beasts hungry for live flesh, and an attempt to control the weather spun wildly out of control and pushed the planet into a state of permanent winter. When James Pierce, a low-ranking recruit in the Sentinels, the military force that protects what remains of humanity, is thrown into a squad responding to a distress call from an isolated and important communications outpost, he has high hopes for his first real mission.
But when his helicopter crashes and it becomes immediately obvious that something has gone catastrophically wrong, he begins hunting for survivors and trying to salvage the situation. As he struggles for survival, he learns that something far worse than the typical horrors he's used to might be lurking in the area...
Read the book HERE on WattPad.
So yeah. This is the longest novel I've ever written. I'll be updating Mondays and Thursdays until it is complete. Let me know what you think. If people actually care about it, I'd definitely be open to continuing the story.
In the meantime, I'll be working on the first book in the new Shadow Wars series and I'll try to post it in June, but it might end up waiting until July, depending on how long pre-production goes on for. I'll drop some new information on it right here.
The series is called KANE'S WAR, as is the first novel. It picks up ten years after the end of Saturate and introduces a brand new protagonist, Ethan Kane. He is a Special Operations soldier with a lot of personal problems. He ends up getting caught in the middle of a massive, insane situation and is forced to fight harder than he has ever fought in his entire life in order to survive and save others around him. In doing so, he gets the attention of Anomalous Operations.
Kane's War is basically a lead-in to the rest of the seven book series. This series is going to be a bit more character driven. The over-arching plot will be following Kane's own personal journey, with each individual book being about, you guessed it, people killing monsters with guns in outer space. I think I've managed to collect some good ideas here, and I especially love the first book. It's going to be a lot of fun.
In other news, I'm going to push ahead with The DOOM Chronicles: Episode Two. Sorry that's taking so long. I'm also going to start working on my Halo epic. It's still in pre-production right now, as I'm not putting a lot of effort into it, as I know I need to focus more on getting DOOM written before starting something new. Basically, what I'm looking at is getting Episode Two halfway finished before I start actually writing the Halo story. Then I'll work on both of them simultaneously.
And that's where I'm at. Currently trying to wrap up other real life things, trying to get my head back in the right place and not succumb to absolute fucking despair.
It's not easy.
Wish me luck. And let me know what you think of Dead Winter.