The Near Horizon: May 2018

I finally have some good news!

Although I admittedly did not get very much done for April, (just one chapter for The DOOM Chronicles and two for Unknown), progress in my real life has been made! That big problem that occurred near the end of January has finally been rectified and in a way that makes it seem fairly certain that it will not crop up again for hopefully a really long time. So that's out of the way!

The other big problem I've been having since about December, my general lazy lethargy and stress problems, (frequently at odds with each other), is finally beginning to dissipate. I'm back on my medication, and even on the lowest possible dosage, I'm definitely feeling just a lot clearer, focused, and motivated.

It's this kind of thing that really helps kind of emphasize psych meds for me. I've always been a proponent of medications, although for my own reasons, most of them vague and unfounded, I kind of resisted the idea of me personally getting on them. Although in reality what kept me from doing so was a lack of healthcare insurance. I know there's a lot of stigma even still around any kind of mental illness or psychological imbalances, which still strikes me was fucking ridiculous.

Someone is diabetic, no one questions that they take insulin.

Someone has a psychological imbalance? They should just 'get over it' and 'man up' and 'stop being sad'.

Both of these are documentable, objectively proven realities, both of them are physical problems, and yet one is basically just straight-up disrespected. It's stupid as hell.

I think part of the problem is that people don't understand psych meds in general. Besides the fact that there's more than just anti-depression meds, medication doesn't make you happy. It makes you more capable of being happy. And it's also a bit of trial and error. A medical that can help one person a hell of a lot might actually make another person worse. I took an anti-anxiety medication in late 2016 and early 2017 that actually increased my anxiety.

Anyway, I could go on about this for awhile. So I'm back on my medication, and it's helping, and that's a good thing.

Now, that being said, my life is kind of busy right now. The short of it is that one of my roommates is moving out. So I'm taking the opportunity to kind of rearrange the house, and to give the whole house kind of a deep clean. This is going to be a bit of a process and isn't something I can just do and get done in a day or two. So it's going to be ongoing throughout May. I've got other background annoying real-life things to deal with too. Basically, my life is busy right now.

So, onto the actual story related news. I don't have much, but I'll give you what I've got.

Basically, I'm going to try and get to a point where I'm more regularly updating The DOOM Chronicles and Unknown. My primary focus for now, and I imagine for the next few months, is wrapping up those two things. Once Episode Two is done, I'm going to put The DOOM Chronicles back to sleep for a bit.


I fired up DOOM 3 to help kind of get me in the right head space to keep going with The DOOM Chronicles.

As for what I want to do after my two current projects are done? Instead of Desolation Dreaming, I'm going to go ahead and write Dawn's War, since I think it's about high time for another Shadow Wars related title.

And after The DOOM Chronicles goes back on the shelf, I think what I'm going to do is finally get started on my Classic Halo Universe. Honestly, I feel like if I don't get started on it, I'm going to lose my fucking mind. I might not even wait until The DOOM Chronicles: Episode Two is finished before I start, but I do want to make sure that I make some significant progress on that story before I really dig into Halo.

I'm also still giving consideration to a long-running side-series to The Shadow Wars that I think people would really like. So, that's still floating around near the forefront of my thoughts.

On a smaller note, I ended up disassembling my Obsidian Thirteen profile mainly because I realized that I was lying to myself. There's realistically no way I'm going to have time to tend to it for at least a year, if not two or longer. So I took it down and instead rolled some of the ideas into Obsidian Productions. I plan to release them as Obsidian Classics further on down the line. More on that when I have time.

And now the big, probably annoying announcement, although I'm not sure how many people were really following this. Over the past year I've been talking about this Post-Apocalyptic Survival/Horror I've been working on. I'm basically going to take it and put it up on the shelf. I don't want to get too much into why I'm doing this. I can say that it's not because I doubt its quality. I mean, you know me, I don't think I'm amazing, but I've gotten a little bit better at being able to determine if what I'm writing sucks. So it's not a quality issue.

The primary reason is that, well, I have a kind of vision, a really, really big idea, in which this novel is one small piece. It's a huge writing related idea, and it's something that's going to take time, like, a lot of time, for pre-production. A few years at least. It's separate from what I'm doing with my S. A. Lusher stuff, wholly its own thing. I'm going to be quietly working on it in the background for a long time and I'm pretty much going to stop talking about it.

Which means the majority of my focus is going to S. A. Lusher and Obsidian Productions. So yay!

Like I said before, I want 2018 to kind of be a catch-up year where I write a few of the projects that I've had rattling around in my brain for several years now. I want to clear the table for future development of The Shadow Wars universe, as I have a lot of ideas.

And that's about it for now. May will also be quiet, but I'm hoping it will be the least quiet month of 2018 so far. Wish me luck!